I had s** with my brother's fiancee
My brother is 3 yrs older than me and has always been the "together" sibling. My younger sister and I are always being compared negatively to him and asked by our parents and relatives why we can't get good jobs and be more like him. Despite this, we are very close and I love him and look up to him a lot.
If there's one thing I have going for me it's that I've always been the "hot" brother. Beautiful girls kind of throw themselves at me everywhere I go (not trying to brag, just true). He's not unattractive he just doesn't have the good looks and good body that I do. He's also pretty inexperienced with girls.
The thing is, over the years I've slept with 3 of his gf's. Over the past few weeks, Iv'e had s** with both his future wife (he's getting married in a week) and the maid-of-honor. He's never found out about any of this. If he did he would be extremely hurt and I honestly don't know how I would respond.
Ever since it happened whenever I'm around them his fiancee eye-f**** the s*** out of me the entire time. She's made it clear that she wants to hook up again. The truth is she's insanely hot (my brother seriously scored out of his league) and I don't think I can turn her down. In addition, I've always kind of felt good about getting with his so's because of the insecurities I've had about the constant comparisons. It feels like I finally have something over him.
As I stated my brother, sister, and I are very close. We are all best friends and I don't want to ruin everything by him finding out about my actions. I don't even really feel guilty, just scared that he'll find out and my siblings will hate me. I know I sound like a terrible person, but I feel like I'm really just an insecure guy who's doing terrible things. Even so, I want his fiancee's body sooo badly that in the past few days I've been fantasizing about her even when I'm with other girls.
We aren't in love, just insane mutual l***. Should we just go for it and get it out of our systems or shut it down before I risk getting found out?