I got raped by my cousin
It happen twice , and till this day I'm embarrassed . My husband had his friends over a Saturday morning , they all went quad riding and in the afternoon they got home I BBQ for them and let them be , It was roughly 10 ish when I decided to go to sleep , I went in shower and went to bed . It was 2 am when I felt oral s** being preformed on me , I woke up I thought it was my husband and I let him continue but as I tried reaching for him he pulled away , it puzzled me to see him walk out the room. I put a robe on and walked towards the kitchen I see my husband still awakes with his friends and my cousin , My husband turns to me and smiles at me so I went back to the room I didn't think much , he probably got h**** went in the room preform oral and before his friends notice .
Long story short about a month later my husband had his friends over again we do same routine , I say goodnight and go to my room . It was around 1 am this time when I feel oral preform on me , again I quickly reach to feel him and as I reach to his head I realized it wasn't my husband , I try to pull away and scream when I get turned upside down and a hand over my mouth I feel when his undressing me, I can't move or see his face as I'm facing down when I slowly feel getting penetrated , defently not my husband , I struggle to look up but I can't . I see a chance and I pull my hand free and scrash his forearm. I could here is he moaning and groaning . Ok so I have a condition where I don't loosen up and struggle to get wet. my husband and I Call it "f****** a virgin." As his about to finish he pushes me down on the bed and runs out , I couldn't see who he was and I didn't try to look either I was shock and felt dirty I ran to the bathroom and showered . It was Sunday morning easily 100 degrees I notice as everyone was wearing t-shirts and I notice my cousin is wearing a long sleeve . I didn't say nothing and thought to myself , No I know it wasn't my cousin that raped me . I look at the guys arms and no marks . I look at my cousin and frown at him , I told my husband I need to talk to you , he answers me in 10 mins. As I'm walking pass the bathroom I feel a pushed in the bathroom , my cousin is standing in front of me , leans to me and hugs me I can feel his p****was hard, he leans on me unzippes my shorts and forces his p**** in me , I try pushing him off but his to strong , he groans as he is forcing his p**** in me , after a minutes I start getting wet but my v***** walls are tighten . He tellls me , please don't tell him , I been wanting you since we were teens and I couldn't handle it , and if it wasn't me , it was going to be one of friend ." Wtf ?" And strangely enough he asked me why was my v***** so tight , if I didn't have s** with my husband he mentions " A***** mention how tight your p***y was but damn ". This a****** wtf was wrong with him . I been to embarrass to tell my husband that his best friend my second cousin raped me. Now every time his friends are over I lock the room to avoid this happening again .