I hate being a dad. Because i dont want to hurt my kids or my wife by leaving them. I stay, convincing myself that my love for them is enough, but it isnt. I was meant to be alone. I was never meant to have children.
I love them, i hate having them. They are my responsibility and i will be the best i can for them. But it is aging me one day at a time.
I have no patience for them. I get bored with their redundant play. I try to find the love in the moments, but there is more pain than joy on raising children.
By the time they are old enough to hang out ill be too old to care.