I watch p*** and m********* twice a day or more. then I hate what I did and pretend I never did it. I even hate the p*** I watch to get me in the mood. I want a nice man but maybe I am not looking in the right places. what do you have to do to get their attention ? why are some men so violent and awful at s** and have no idea what women want. I just always wanted a hot guy. not all the saggy baggy fat ugly old losers, some even were pretending to be around my age and I was naive but now I can see there is no way they could have been.