After math of s** with my stepbrother
My stepbrother and I have been fooling around for more than a couple of months, basically since the summer. It was just under the covers simple innocent touches. Then it turned into fingering, b*******, and handjobs. Then about 3 months ago we had s**. It was bad s**, it was both our first time and it was bad. It hurt and it was painful. We keep going with the other stuff as if it doesn't matter. We spend at least 2 nights a month together and then he leaves at like 2 am or something.
What sucks is that I feel like I have a connection with him. I don't know how to explain it. But the other days he treats me like s*** and what not. He hits me, makes fun of me, and is just plain mean to me.
I should probably stop doing what I am doing with him because he is my stepbrother but he is the only person I am comfortable doing that stuff with. I'm not even comfortable doing that stuff with my own boyfriend. I just need to find a way to get over him and move on.