Raped twice both horrific and humiliating
I would see a counselor or shrink. I've been raped twice, no woman ever wants that to happen. The first time I filed a police report caught the guy and he got off on a technicality it was awful telling the story of it over and over. Second time I just took it and didn't fight back and just let him rape and sodomize me for about an hour. He stole my purse when he finished and has contacted me a couple times. It's horrifying hearing his voice and remembering that I didn't fight back and just let him use, humiliate, degrade and I just let him. He did impregnate me and did other gross things to me. He urinated on my face and in my mouth, his pushed his entire hand in my v*****. He didn't use a condom and orgasmed multiple times in my v***** and in my touché. He made me m********* when doing a*** s** and I cried in shame when I orgasmed. He's the first man to have a*** s** with me. It hurt a lot but masturbating helped ease the pain but tears of shame and humiliation poured out as I came then felt him c** in my touché. It felt different and warmer then in my v*****. He told me to make myself c** again while he was still in me touché. I did and still cried saying I feel so dirty and slutty doing a*** s**. So he pulled out rolled me over spread my legs and began to work his hand in to my v*****. He said I was loose and very wet cause I like this and I closed my eyes and said no please stop it hurts. He grabbed my hair and made me watch as he pushed his whole hand up past his wrist in to my v*****. I couldn't believe it he touched my g spot and sent me moaning. He pumped his hand and arm in and out touching my spot till I orgasmed screaming cause it was intense. He pulled his hand out and put it in my mouth as he entered my v***** again. He smiled at me and said I'm very stretched out and squeeze my v***** tight. I tried and did a little. He asked why I'm not resisting anymore? I said I'm numb on humiliation and just want you to finish raping me so I can put this behind me and forget it ever happened. He smiled and moaned and said he's c** again in my p****. He asked if my husband wanted s** tonight and what would I do. I began to cry again and just asked him to please just stop tormenting me and do what you want with me so it can be over. He put his p**** in my mouth and made me lick the juices off then began to urinate in my mouth and face and hair. He made me drink some and I cried the whole time he peed on me. He slapped me and told me to m********* again. I said why and he slapped me again so I did as told. He made me choose between either his hand and arm in my v***** or a*** s**. I choose the a*** s**. I got on all fours in the back of my minivan again and made myself available for him. He did me again reminding me how I picked it cause I liked it. I liked it better than his hand in my v***** and I masturbated too. I orgasmed twice before he did in me and again as and after he came in me. He grabbed my purse and tossed my keys outside so he could get away. I was a mess pee covered, c** in my v***** and touché and leaking into my panties and down my legs. My v***** is soar my touché too. I got myself together found my keys and purse but not my wallet in the parking lot. Called my husband and tried to speak without crying and apologized for running late. When I got home I went straight upstairs to the shower. It was 4 weeks later I found out I was pregnant from the rape so I had an abortion claimed it was from an extramarital affair. If you say rape, they make you report it to the police. I sometimes fantasize about that day and have masturbated when he's called me too.