Kinky but my boyfriend doesn't know

I've always been into rough s**, but before I met my current boyfriend (I'm 18btw) I was 'with' a much older guy who was 29. We had a purely sexual relationship which suited us both since we both have a really high s** drive. But he introduced me to everything I now enjoy. Which ranges from fairly hardcore BDSM, g********, rape etc to a ddlg relationship.
I really love my current boyfriend, I enjoy our relationship a lot more because its not just about s** but we do have s** almost everyday. The problem is I still feel h**** and although he's rough with me its no where near the same as the older guy. I just wanna be thrown around and used like a little doll. Also, I know my bf finds me attractive as in pretty etc. But I don't feel as sexy or nearly as desired. Like, the older guy used to get hard just thinking about my body. But I feel like my bf doesn't feel the same... idk if this is just all my insecurities coming out or what but its frustrating. Btw I'm his first kiss and s** so I feel like he might just not be that experienced? Basically my question is. Should I tell him about my kinks? If so how much of them because I doubt he'd like the idea of me getting g*********. He's very protective. And how should I go about it?? I have told him I like being dominated I just don't think he realises to what extent. He doesn't do any dirty talk or anything in the bedroom which I wish he would because when he does I f****** love it. But I'm just embarrassed and I don't know if all this is normal for me to feel?? Helpppp

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  • You are one sick disgusting lady

  • OK here's my take as an old unhappy married man. 25 years with a woman who does not get me is very very very lonely. I am a touch person. I'm kinky. BDSM. A bit of rough s**. Slap and tickle. Power is very erotic.

    My wife is not kinky.

    I regret to this day that we did not talk through this before we were married. I loved her very much and at the time I would have been devastated but with the benefit of old age and years of unfulfilment it would have been better. She basically thought I was sick and needed to be fixed. She withdrew such that our interactions were even less than normal vanilla.

    Now I have a woman on the side who gets me. She is a touch person. She is submissive. She enjoys a light spanking (turns her on) she will endure a harsh whipping as a demonstration of her submission. She enjoys a long hug and a kiss and caressing of my hands gently around her face. She dresses to tease me or at other times dresses as I tell her to do. I whisper in her ear that when we get home I'm going to f*** her and she loves it.

    So tell the guy and lead him on and see how it goes but don't marry him unless you feel it in your gut that he gets you.

  • Thanks for this, I was kind of worried something was wrong with me. I'm learning more about the BDSM community so I can kinda explain it to him hopefully.
    Also, what would've you said as an inexperienced man to this kinda culture if a woman approached you and said these things?? I just wanna be prepared before I ask because I get pretty anxious

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