Not gay but drawn to c****?
I am straight male 25yo. I broke up with my ex who I loved very much and I guess I wanted to destroy myself or something so I went onto grindr and got an older white guy to visit me. Oh btw im asian 165lb 5'9". Anyways he comes over, he started to kiss me and I drop on my knees and started blowing him. He pulls me up then have me in like 'head-lock' position but on my waist with me facing back. He played with my butt which I forgot to shave... Oops. Then he started spanking it. I moaned a bit. Then he had me belly down on my bed and pulled my c*** between my legs and played with it and started eating my hairy ass. Gosh idk how he did that. Anyways he tried to penetrate but I was so tight he couldnt go in. So he just rub himself between my tiny cheeks and when he said he was about to c** I told him I wanted to drink his c** so he laid back and I sucked him til he came. I realized so much later after he came that he did.. It just felt warm and I didnt wamt to swallow so I spit it on his c***.. Haha he said it was a pleasant surprise. Anyways. I dont ever want to have s** with men nor wanna blow men. But I wanna j*** off to c****... Wtf? Oh I was so scared right after, I went to CVS and bought a HIV test kit haha and found out that I meeded to wait 3 months to test anyways.