I hate small b****
I hate small b****. I am turning 17 in November and I don't even fill an A cup breast size. Through the deepening pain I have experienced through this I have began to feel bad for others that have small b****, and to even hate small b****. My mother doesn't even fill an A cup either and the genes passed onto me. My best friend is 15 and she has D cup b******. Why can't I have something like that? I sometimes feel like I want to die, but in the end I don't. In the end it's always me saying that I will simply be living an extremely unsatisfactory life to be kind to those that I love, to act like I'm fine when I'm not. I'm extremely h**** and all of my friends know this. I am a lesbian, and I love t***. All of these people around me are born with them while I have to sit here and suffer? This is why I'm atheist. God doesn't exist. I have terrible hormonal acne from both my mom and dad that I have still not been able to get rid of, I have tried everything. I have fantasized about wearing clothes that show off my cleavage and I can feel pretty, but the only life I will live is the life that I will suffer in. Life is short, and you only live once. Why couldn't I be pretty in this life? I see other people with small b****** and I cry for them. I feel terrible for them. Some people are confident with their size, but I still cry for them. Why do people get to be born with b****** yet I have to paying 100,000+ to get b******. It's bullshit. I've tried everything to grow them, and nothing helped. I hate small b****.