Just shaved my pubes, gay fantasies growing stronger
Im a 29 year old man and my homosexual urges are getting so hard to contain. I juat shaved my crotch in she shower and my heart is beating out of my chest and my adrenaline is pumping. I've had these urges since I was a kid. When I was 18 I met a guy online who was going to lock my head and hands and feet in a dog mask and leather mitts and make me his pet for a weekend but I chickened out. Then when I was 19 I met another guy. I waited naked and kneeling on his front porch until he came home from work and blindfolded and handcuffed me and abused me in his cellar for hours and hours.
I havent had the courage to try again since and I lost a few years in prison and didn't go gay for the stay (though I did fantasize about being turned out by the guard). Now I'm fantasizing hard about an adult bookstore nearby and stripping my ass naked and choking myself on d*** at a glory hole and maybe getting my bubble butt pounded. I'm naked and I can't stop thinking about it but I'm also afraid.