H*** no, I don't want to live a long life

I have no desire to live a long life, healthy or otherwise.

It's just the same thing over and over and over and over.

I have opportunities, able to travel, have a career I actually enjoy (the job, not so much!), have lovely people around me etc, but good lord, this s*** is mundane.

Turning 40 and I've done pretty much all I wanted to do, with a little extra thrown in (kids, relationship, home, pets) but I'd be so happy to just bid this planet goodbye and just cease to exist.

I'm not suicidal, though I wouldn't fight to hold on if I was hit by a bus! I'd pretty much smile as I thank the universe for rescuing me.

I wish I could plan my death. I know there's assisted suicide, but the conditions placed on it and the hoops you have to jump through just to say 'bye' is enough to make you really want to kill yourself.

So it's back to hoping my days will soon be numbered.

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  • I hope you get help soon , talking about it does not help , please seek professional help and don’t suffer alone , there is help out there for you .if you are a young adult , there is still hope , if you are a aging adult , than Hope is fading fast if you don’t seek that help now rather than later , just seek help from someplace , I know that therapy does not work , but try medication from a doctor.

  • Start doing risky stuff like you have kids any daughters?

  • OP has a death wish. Do you too?

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