H*** no, I don't want to live a long life
I have no desire to live a long life, healthy or otherwise.
It's just the same thing over and over and over and over.
I have opportunities, able to travel, have a career I actually enjoy (the job, not so much!), have lovely people around me etc, but good lord, this s*** is mundane.
Turning 40 and I've done pretty much all I wanted to do, with a little extra thrown in (kids, relationship, home, pets) but I'd be so happy to just bid this planet goodbye and just cease to exist.
I'm not suicidal, though I wouldn't fight to hold on if I was hit by a bus! I'd pretty much smile as I thank the universe for rescuing me.
I wish I could plan my death. I know there's assisted suicide, but the conditions placed on it and the hoops you have to jump through just to say 'bye' is enough to make you really want to kill yourself.
So it's back to hoping my days will soon be numbered.