I've been borderline anorexic for the past 4 years. I think i can control it but the truth is I'm scared I won't be able to much longer. I'm terrified of letting it take hold, not because of my health but because then people will find out. Only 2 of my friends know because I'm scared the others will freak out and judge me. I'm even scared to admit it to a friend who suffered from it a few years ago. I just feel so alone and i can't cope with people telling me I'm lucky to be skinny.