I'm being blackmailed for s**
I'm a FORMER p*** actress. But I left that life behinid. I've since changed my name and my social security number. But some people never let you forget you past. SCUMMY, SLEAZY PEOPLE!!! I work as a legal secretary, now. One of the lawyers here got ahold of one of the old p*** tapes I was in. Let's just say it shows me doing some pretty extreme sexual things (I was young and stupid). This SLIMEBAG lawyer called me in his office and told me he knows about my past and that he has the tape. I thought he was going to get me fired because, where I work, we had to sign a sort of morality clause saying we wouldn't do and had not done anything that would cause embarassment to the firm. If it's found out that we had, we could be fired. He told me I had to meet him for s** whenever he wanted or he would turn me in and get me fired. I'm married and my husband was not working, so we were getting by on my paycheck, alone. Plus, this is the best job I have ever had. If I lost it, I'd probably have to go back to waitressing. Also, I never told my husband about my past. So, if he were to find out, I'm not sure what he would to. He might leave me. So I said OK. I figured I would just go along until I figured out how to get out of it. Anytime he tells me to meet him, I just tell my husband I have to work late on some legal case. The few first times, I cried. But he seemed to be getting off on that so I stopped crying. I just held it in. It's been over 6 months, so far, and I still haven't figured out how to get out of it. It sounds and feels horrible to say, but I'm afraid kind of getting used to it. I usually only have to meet him once or twice a week in some motel room and it's usually just for a few hours. Or, on some weekends, he has me tell my husband I have to accompany a lawyer on a "business trip" and he has me meet him at some hotel room he has rented and has me all weekend. One thing he does do, though, that is kind of helping me out...he leaves me money. Usually about 2 a3 hundred dollars. I feel ashamed about taking the money, but it is helping out. My husband still isn't working and I'd be lying if I said I didn't need the money. But the last few times, he has brought friends with him and had his friends do me while he watched. I've got to find a way out of this. I fear this is spiralling out of control.