I uploaded s** videos to a p*** site without the girls’ consent.
I like to record my sexual encounters for my own personal use, and I’ve accumulated quite a few nice ones over the years. A couple weeks ago, I figured it would be exciting to show the videos off on pornhub, so I uploaded several of them. I was getting a kick out of all the views, likes, and comments. It made me feel good about myself that so many other people were impressed with the things I had done. It all seemed to be good.
But then I got a text from a girl who was featured in several of the videos. She got right to the point- “Did you start pornhub account?” I didn’t think I had a good chance of getting out of it, but I felt like I had to give it a shot. “Nope,” I replied. And then she started sending screenshots of the videos and of my profile that clearly matched things like my age, city, and preferences. She told me it’s unlikely that someone hacked my computer for these, and even less likely that they made my profile with all correct information. Thoroughly caught, I owned up to it. She insisted that I remove them from the internet and delete all of the videos of her that I have.
I don’t know what her current thoughts and feelings are, but they’re definitely bad. I feel very stupid for not being more careful to ensure she’d never get identified (it was a friend of hers who found the content by searching for local profiles). But I feel terrible about myself for not honoring the expectations of these women that the videos were for personal use only.