I’m so sorry
*warning this is extremely awful* I am currently 14 and when I was 10 I let a dog lick my downstairs. I know. It’s completely horrible. It happened and I just brushed it off and forgot about it. Yesterday I came across a post talking about how awful it is to do that and then I remembered. I got the idea from the internet and I had no idea that it was such a bad thing to do. I hate that there was a point in my life that I thought that was okay. I now know that I was taking advantage of my dog and I can’t look at her without crying. The shame I feel is immense. I abused my dog and I didn’t even realize it. I take full responsibility from my actions and I feel like I don’t even deserve to live. I wish I never did that and I never hurt her, even if that wasn’t my intention it was still the outcome and I hate myself for it. I don’t think I deserve forgiveness but I really miss being able to pet my dog without wanting to die for my actions. It’s even worse that I’m someone who preaches about consent and I always treat animals with kindness, so why did I think that was okay? Im disgusted with myself and please don’t try to justify this. I had no idea. My poor dog ): I’m sorry you had to read this but if anyone can help, please tell me what to do. I understand if you’re disgusted with me, because I am too. Is there any way I can make up for this? Or do I just have to accept that I feel ashamed for the rest of my life.