Same old s***

Im always chasing peoples attention and effort..
dated a couple of guys before and the consistency of effort are just in the beginning and the rest im always the one who's doing all the effort..

told myself before that this time i should not engage on relationship where its always me who's the one doing all the stuffs to make it active.

but here i am again, on same situation , i guess i have to end it sooner before my feelings will go deep to that someone. i may miss him but this is for my well being.

Im so tired of half ass things, half ass love, half ass effort..