I’m too kinky for women

I’m 38, never been married, no kids and my longest relationship was 3 years.

I’ve always been to kinky, I’m a self confessed s** addict and masturbator and I love p***. Ever since I learnt to c** at 15 I’ve been addicted. My daily ritual has never changed I always need to c** on a daily basis, no matter how tired, stressed or time poor I’ll always make time for an o*****.

When it comes to s** I can’t c** to regular “vanilla” s**. It’s boring, no passion and doesn’t even get me hard. I’ve always had a very kinky imagination, from 15 older women seducing me, f****** friends girlfriends and even f****** cousins or girls I worked with. I learnt very quickly that I was different.

All of my relationships fail and it’s all due to me. I get bored, when it’s the same redundant night after night of no s** or very lazy s** I get annoyed. Even when I speak up I was shamed. So I’d cheat, lie and watch p*** to get my fix. I worked with a girl when I was 26, I was a assistant store manager and she was a casual still in high school. She seduced me. The s** was constant and incredible, no condoms, constant flirting teasing and kinky s**. I’d sneaky into her room at night and f*** her. Most of the time at work. Sometimes my car. My girlfriend was so predictable, plain and vanilla. Never initiated s** and couldn’t o***** even doing it herself. This girl knew and didn’t care, from riding me on the shop floor after closing to picking her up from school and f****** her in her uniform before her parents got home. To this day I’ve never had my b**** drained so often and with enthusiasm.

But she was pressured to end if from her friends as it wasn’t ‘healthy’. A few times we met us secretly, but it became to much for her.

When I think about s** it’s always something f***** up, kinky or really dirty. My mind goes through elaborate fantasies and kinks that I know most women freak out about. Over the years I’ve met girls who just can’t keep up. Some try, but the emotional and physical strain is too much. I’ve met girls with daddy issues, abuse victims, assault victims and more. There’s comes a point where it’s too much for them and they can’t handle it.

I’ve been single for over 5 years now and I’ve had blind dates, set up and met girls online. I tried to be normal in the dating scene, but I just can’t do it. My last date was 4 years ago and when we met I knew she was plain. The whole time she was talking I was looking over her shoulder at the teenage girl wondering if she’s masturbated yet. The last few years I’ve met girls for kinks and fetishes. It’s really opened my eyes to what I want an need.

My biggest and deepest thing is to find a woman who will f*** other men, not just a once off or on a special occasion , but regularly in front of me and I join in. I want her to be the biggest s*** and not be shy about it. I want her to love that I love it. I have fantasies she f**** guys she works with, randoms and online guys. I imagine she brings them over and I’m hiding in the spare room with cameras all over the house and I’m watching her in action with these guys. I’m playing with myself while I watch her play. I want to see her enjoy herself and take advantage of this, rough s**, oral, cumshots the lot. I’d love to plan it out before hand. Not just one particular type either. Older guys, young guys, fit or Teenage boys who she gives them a taste of what s**** are like. I don’t care if they c** fast, how tough they get or how they treat her (as long as it’s not violent). I’d love to see her c** on his c*** as I watch, knowing full well she’s the luckiest woman in the world.

I’d love to watch her play wth young boys, boys who just learnt their c**** get hard so she takes advantage of it. She lets them grab her t***, kiss her and she plays with them and they all blow fast and hard. She cleans them up before sending on their way before coming to me with c** still on her hands and watch her lick it up.

That’s my other thing, I want her to love being a c** dump, c** addict and c*** w****. The deeper and harder she is about it the more I love her. I want to f*** her while we watch those videos and get off to our perverted dirty life.

In the real world we will be a nice, loving and caring couple, yet behind closed doors we are sexual deviants. Taboo fantasies and a little f***** in the head to reach our o******. I want people to not have a f****** clue about our exploits.

I’d love and care for a woman so hard if I met someone like this. Yet it’s virtually impossible. It has not been met well at all. In fact no one has even remotely indulged in it. Most are curious, but not into it. Some want t as a once off, where I need it as a life style. I’d say 99.9% of women are not into it and that makes things hard for me and not in a good way.

So I stay single in hopes of meeting her. I can’t and won’t go back to a normal relationship, I can’t handle the mono-tiny. My work and family are normal and I need a woman who will excite me with her need for c*** and o******.

A woman I can treat like a princess, but f*** like a w**** and not apologise for it or shame me.

Nov 19

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  • I'm sure you'll find I relationship like that someday. I fit the criteria you have for the kind of woman you'd want I love c*** and getting slapped and tied up, really just whatever my partner wants. I like to be owned and used by multiple men and cummed in over and over until I'm crying. I have a similar problem, no one is as kinky as me so I get bored in relationships. I've never cheated though and I'm shy and reserved, the opposite when it comes to s** though so people never see it coming and get freaked out. I hope I can find someone like you someday, but for now I'll have to wait because I'm not 21 yet so I'm not old enough. Best of luck!!

  • Where do you live?

  • Haha Australia

  • Are you for real?

  • Maybe its time to start a relationship with a man or men.

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