"Ill be dead by dawn" holy s***

Im listening to $uicideboy$ and holy s*** their music is good but its bringing back all the bullshit feelings
While im screaming and crying the lyrics its like i can refeel the physical feelings from alll those times i held a knife against my neck
Ive been at my worst the past few months, attempted twice and too many other events because I'm a f****** attention w****.