I'm so f***** up

I'm 16 and have a bf, now we've had a good relationship for about 10 months now. But he's never given me much affection when we have s**. I feel like I'm always doing the work and he begs me day after day to blow him. So sexually I don't feel like I'm getting what I desire, and he recently called me a w**** because I went camping and didn't have service. So I said f*** it and had s** with another guy, and you know what, he was able to fulfill my needs. I should also mention my bf is very controlling and manipulative, also extremely clingy. So I've been drained of all my energy for a while now, but I feel like I've lost all feelings for him, and I know I'm a s*** person for cheating on him. But all he ever does is ignore my need for attention and only call some for himself, and treats me like trash. I've mentioned a threesome to him before but he just won't budge, and he tries to block every guy friend I have, even my brothers. So I ran off to someone for help and they did, and I found out they treated me so much better, but I feel in my mind I still love my bf, but my heart just doesn't say the same. I might mention I was hit by him before, but I've gotten over it. (hit by my bf) What should I do?

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