I am a rapist and I deserve to die
Unable to find a woman for myself where my friends are successful and happily married with their spouse and children I stand alone waiting for my time to come and see my self in their position. I am seek and tired of being religious it only suppresses my urges.
Unable to contain myself, I went to a w****(still a fricking human being) paid and started to force myself on her. She was in disgust due my behavior and called me a frustrated loser.
Then and there I broke down and hiding my tears I decided to leave. I know I am living a life which millions are deprived off but I can't take this toxic anymore. I wish I had courage to commit suicide.