Had s** on the first date and he's ghosting me
I am 28F, Indian. I'm studying in Germany and I went on a bumble date with a German guy 26. We talked for a couple of hours and conversation flowed. Then we decided to get some beer. Long story short we got pretty wasted and ended up at his apartment and started having s**.
He immediately started talking dirty like "you dirty s***" etc which kind of turns me on so I was like great . But in the middle of giving him a BJ he says "you dirty little Indian" which caught me off guard so I kind of burst into laughter . But carried on . Then he came in my mouth and I swallowed.
Then I fell asleep on the couch but half an hour later when I woke up I felt strange to be sleeping on the couch (insecurity issues) so I told him I'm leaving and ill text and left . He said ok but I don't know how awake he was . Next morning I text him good morning . And that I forgot my vape there . But nothing . It's been 3 days now. No reply .
Now I feel used and questioning my judgement. I wasn't planning on sleeping with him and feel kind of horrible that he has lost all respect for me because of the things i did sexually . Like Its okay even if he doesn't want to see me again . But we can still talk as adults and say that .ghosting makes me feel like I did something wrong or bad .