Still bothers me....
Im in my senior year and I have an incident in my freshman year that still bothers me.
Right before school started (note I had never done a sport) I was excited when I was offered to join the football team. I willingly accepted and within the coming weeks I found it wasn't for me.
I cried every night because of plays I f***** up during practice. I didn't think about anything else accept the coming practice. (not in the good way) I was always jittery, and nervous to the point of almost throwing up. So much so I almost always got to the brink of crying in practice.
Than once I actually quit, I felt as if I had let everybody on the team down and that's all they talked about. (which wasn't true)
To this day, even though I work out and keep in the best looking condition possible. I feel as this is the reason I only have 2 or 3 close friends and I don't have a girlfriend
I dont know how the h*** this will help, but maybe telling it like it is will get some relief off