My mom found out I had s**. I'm 17.
My mom found my pregnancy test in my bag in the summer (i only had the test cause i was paranoid) and she bursted into tears right in front of me. and from that day she hasn't trust me at all, or at least she pretends to but deep inside i know she is now always doubting me. she used to trust me 100%.
i didnt tell her i had a boyfriend because i know she would flip out and kick me out of the house - she's really strict and is very controlling. i think they made me sort of rebel. then i fell in love and had s** with my boyfriend at the age of 17. of course i didnt tell my mother cause i knew she would react badly. anyway i am still having s** with my boyfrined but i've told my mom that it had ended a few weeks after the whole terrible she found my pregnancy test incident. i feel so guilty and i am scared she will find out again and be upset all over again. when she found out she sent my boyfriend the longest email telling him to dump me and that he should stop inteferring with my school work. I had to lie about the recent huge phone bills and i have a feeling she's going to find out all over again.
i love my boyfriend and we've been going out for 3 years since i was 15 and am turning 18 soon. i want to wait till im 18 to tell her i have a boyfriend because im turning 18 in 3 months. but at the same time i know she will disapprove because i am stil doing my a levels. she doesn't realise that im 18 and am not 12 anymore and still treats me like a little girl. fair enough i understand that no mother wants their child to grow up but its happenning and she needs to realise! i'm not very close with my mother and we never have deep meaningful conversations and i defintely do not have the courage to tell her or have a heart to heart talk with her without involving any form of argueing. i don't know what to do and i feel so guilty i always have to lie whenever i see my boyfriend, or call him, or even msn him. even buying him presents means my mother checks my credit card bills. i wish she could understand having a boyfriend at 17 is normal and that im not just going out and having s** with any randomer but we're very much in love i've even been given a promise ring. then again i feel guilty for having had s** at such a young age, but i knew i was ready when i did it and took all precautions with contraception and s** ed. please someone just make me feel better.