I'm a 40 year old woman married to a gorgeous husband 5 years older then me. I live a dream life. No job--do whatever I want all day. I eat what I want whenever I want (most of the day), and have grown to a lovely 378 pounds (5'9"). I drink a six pack of Corona a day, and smoke 3 packs of ciggies a day. Mostly, I hang out on the couch with my... [more]
F*** it. i'm anorexic. i can't deal. i'm fat. i'm ugly. the only way i can be pretty is to be skinny. no one notices is what makes me sad. i never eat my lunch. i have half a granola bar in the morning but my parents make me eat dinner but i can't help that
My stepfather smoked for forty years and at age 60 he quit cold turkey. He died 33 years later and every organ that failed were the organs affected by smoking. Yes, 93 is old but his mother lived to be 102. He died in agony and if he had never smoked he would have died of a less painful disease.
My biological father smoked from age 30 till... [more]
I had a breakdown while working in a factory with very loud metal presses. Apparently, my nervous system is too weak to handle the long hours I had to work around these devices.
It started with an anxiety attack and then a rapid heartbeat. Then a strange feeling in my brain similar to a car engine that needed a tuneup. Then chronic... [more]
I always have to take a big s*** after lunch is this normal?
My mom claims to be on a diet, but everyone knows she isn't. She will cut certain foods out when she has an audience, but as soon as she thinks she's alone, she eats almost nothing but junk food.
"No, i can't have pasta."
"Don't ask me to eat bread, i can't have that."
"I'm not going to buy cheese this week."
She says this, but she'll... [more]
There is so much anger and frustration in the world today. Sexual release is a sure way to chill out. Sexual boredom takes place in almost every marriage. It causes fights, cheating and divorce.
A far better solution, in my view, is to have an open sexual relationship. Everyone should be free to get as much [more]
I've been thin and fit most of my life. I'm 42, a tall girl, 5'11", still quite pretty according to most, but I've pretty much always weighed 135-145 lbs. Even in my late 30s, I was really fit and worked out all of the time.
I've let myself go a bit in recent years, stopped working out, didn't watch my diet closely, etc. I'm currently 175 lbs... [more]
I know this may seem like an exaggeration, but this how I genuinely feel.
TL:DR I've been dealing with a lot of s***, I hate everyone, and I feel like everyone hates me. I have no friends with me, and I can't talk to anyone, as I don't mix well with them. I feel like i'm destined to fail and... [more]
I have been an chikdmolested victim by crips gang in Canada as well I got trafficked and been an infant murder victim in both countries by my assaulters that are gang I was revived in a car by my nurse aunt from newyork as well my ma in an d&e in my grams house died like four times i’m An MTF victim that never had a break all my life been trying... [more]
I'm a teen and my mom and dad just divorced after 15 years of marriage, my older sister is an insensitive person who tells mom to "f*** off" and to "die already." my dad moved away with his new girl friend and hasn't contacted me since the divorce, I was much closer to my dad rather than my mom, and... [more]
Before you start to read this, the stuff i am posting about isn't me saying i have the worst problems because i know i dont. Its just me confessing things i cant say aloud...
I think i have depression.
I dont know what kind, if i even do, why i might, or what is even going on.
I feel high on happiness on moment, then nothing the next. I feel... [more]
Suicidal thoughts plague me at the moment...yaaaay
My friend has become aware of my self-harming because she saw the scars on my wrist but she thinks it was a one time thing because I have had to let them fade, cause I have a hospital appointment in April and they have to see my wrists to do it... and I feel really guilty because she doesn’t know that I’m using my thighs
I got married to my wonderful husband nearly 20 years ago. Almost immediately, like on the honeymoon, I started gaining weight. You know how it is, now that you're married, you don't have to pay that much attention to your looks. So I kept gaining, slowly but steadily, and my loving hubby never seemed to mind; never said a word. We still have... [more]
This is an example of a situation that happened yesterday. I was standing at the top of 5 stories of stairs with a friend. The railings were just metal posts, so you could sit down and slip through it and fall 5 stories. My first thought was: If I pushed So-And-So, they could die. I have the powder to kill them right now. All it would take is one... [more]
About 7 months ago, I was 1 year clean of self harm, but I started again because my depression returned. 3 months ago, I attempted suicide by overdosing on ibuprofen (you'd have to take around 150-some ibuprofen pills to actually kill yourself) at school in my bible classroom.
I just wanted to share this to get this off my chest. I don't want... [more]
I know weight is a touchy subject and that it can be damaging to have someone comment on it. Any size, really, but especially when one is overweight. However, is there a point where we just can't keep quiet? I am very sympathetic to the "fat-shaming" movement. Only because I get that we are all different shapes and sizes. When I see someone... [more]
I did terrible in high school because I lack decent short-term memory. I forget what is being said and I have to study three times harder to learn something I read. Math was a disaster. Applying the parts of speech was a disaster. This disorder was caused by oxygen starvation during a bad asthma attack.
There are no treatments you just... [more]
My lovely wife is a gourmet cook, and since we got married 2 years ago, I have gained 37 pounds, as of yesterday. She seems to like my growing belly. Fortunately, she is also packing on the pounds--mainly in her hips and ass. She is looking better and better. She won't tell me how much she has gained, but I am guessing about 30 pounds. I'm so... [more]
A couple months ago I took my 13 yr old son to the doctor for a check up. The doctor told me he is under weight, but I don't consider 112lb to be dangerously thin. He told me I needed to make my son gain weight, it would be the best thing for him health wise, so hearing that I agree. Because any father would want the best for his children. I... [more]
I would've been one year clean of self harm but I couldn't repress my depression any longer
I'm feeling hopeless and confused to the point where I've actually been questioning whether or not it is worth going on. I'm 21. I need a job. I need to make money so I can get out of my parents home. I'm not delusional and I'm willing to do the work. However, physically, I am not doing well and it has only been getting worse over the years. We... [more]
I've been dealing with mental health problems for many years, ever since I was 12. I've fought for so long to live and try to have a functional normal life, but it's just been so long. When people find out about my problems they say things like
"I'm so sorry" or
"Are you ok?" I just look at them and say the expected things
"I'm fine" "don't be... [more]
I keep finding... i look for it. Wierd incest bs. Wow its all over. Sick s***. I pray for thier bondage of sin to be lifted. Im sorry Lord i go there but these people need to be prayed for.