Twenty years ago, when I was 15, I fell
Twenty years ago, when I was 15, I fell in love for the first time-with a 40 yr. old married man who was also a semi-famous pro wrestler (I'll call him "S"). I told him I was 18, & he either believed me or pretended to. We carried on a full-blown affair for 8 months, totally unbeknownst to my mom(she would've flipped out) or his wife(who was an abusive, frigid golddigger). "S" was my 1st true love & the 1st man I had s** with. He was the best lover I've ever had out of 11 other guys. He adored me & treated me like a princess. I ended up dumping him because I thought he was a wimp for not leaving his wife.
Since then I've been through several long relationships & been married once. I'm in a 7 yr. relationship now. Nobody I've been with since has ever made me feel the way "S" did.
In the back of my mind, I've always regretted the way I left him; & thought of him often. Not long ago, I looked "S" up on the internet & found out where I could get in touch with him. I know this is bad since I'm in a commited relationship; but I feel like I need to see "S" & talk to him just one more time to see if he still has feelings for me too. I don't even know what I would do if he did! What should I do??? Am I wrong to feel this way???