Right from the beginning, I knew I

Right from the beginning, I knew I shouldnt of been born
Right from the beginning, mistakes were my life.
Nothing I ever did, was right. NOT once.
I was ridiculed for things, blamed for being me.
I was hurt by my "family" and so I covered myelf with a shield.
Has anyone ever broke in? A crack maybe.But not much.
I dont like for people to be in my business.
But inside Im thinking it would be nice if once in a while someone asked.
Just to fathom the notion that someone cares.
But that is too much to ask.
Im the quiet one.
I say nothing when someone jokes on me.
I know what I WOULD say,but i think why waste energy?
I hate being talked down to, but I come home to exactly that everyday.
Of course Im not perfect sometimes.
And people automatically think that whatever they think I am, I wil always be.
F*** them.
They are nothing.
Thats why I despise most people now.
They make me sick to my stomach.
And sometimes I could be sitting with my friends,and blank off into space and just feel hatred filling me up.
Basically my whole life is crap.
Always has been.
Never was allowed to be happy.
I have always been insecure.
I have always been angry.
I have always been unhappy.

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  • Pity ur dad had no condom r that ur maa didnt tak it up the ass but ur here now so s*** what can u do

  • SO DO SOMETHING TO CHANGE THE SITUATION!! What are you, helpless?? Stop throwing yourself a life-long pity party.
    So..its a she??
    smoke a doobie


  • smoke a doobie


  • ...idk...im just guessing. it mainly girls who write this...and emos...

  • So..its a she??

  • f*** You! maybe she CANT change it. Ever thought about that!

  • SO DO SOMETHING TO CHANGE THE SITUATION!! What are you, helpless?? Stop throwing yourself a life-long pity party.

  • You have always been chemically imbalanced.


    A planet of playthings,
    We dance on the strings
    Of powers we cannot perceive
    "The stars aren't aligned,
    Or the gods are malign..."
    Blame is better to give than receive.

    You can choose a ready guide in some celestial voice.
    If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice.
    You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill;
    I will choose a path that's clear
    I will choose freewill.

    There are those who think that they were dealt a losing hand,
    The cards were stacked against them; they weren't born in Lotusland.

    All preordained
    A prisoner in chains
    A victim of venomous fate.
    Kicked in the face,
    You can't pray for a place
    In heaven's unearthly estate.


    Each of us
    A cell of awareness
    Imperfect and incomplete.
    Genetic blends
    With uncertain ends
    On a fortune hunt that's far too fleet.


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