Found pictures of ex wife
I am very happily married. My first marriage was not so happy. But at least early on my ex was pretty freaky and let me take a lot of pictures. She turned out to be a terrible person and damn near ruined my life. Then I met my current wife whom I am still crazy about. I legitimately felt awful when, 8 years ago, she stumbled upon a box of pictures of my ex, many of which included me doing very dirty things with her. (These were mostly polaroids from my college years, before the age of digital cameras). It was packed away in a storage space, and I hadn't looked at it in years. After I smoothed things over, I burned the box and its contents. However, when I realized that my first marriage was ending, I feared she might ask for those pictures, so I scanned them all and burned them onto a CD. That night I found that disc and broke it in half. Those pictures did not exist in any form anymore, and I was fine with that.
Last week I was looking for some old files of financial documents. I thought they might be on an old thumb drive I found sitting in a box I hadn't opened in several years. I didn't find the files I was looking for, but I did find the pictures of my ex. I honestly don't remember putting them there, but apparently I did. I started looking through them, and before I even realized what I was doing, I had my erect p**** in my hand. I thought about how awful she was to me, and how I still didn't want her back. In fact, I wanted nothing to do with her. I hadn't thought of her this way since I met my wife, but I suddenly wanted to f*** her. Hard. I wanted her to beg for it. I wanted to make it hurt. I wanted to treat her like the trash she is. I looked at the pictures of her with my c** on her face and wanted to do it again, and then watch her wipe it off in shame as I laugh at her. I wanted her to hate it, but at the same time I wanted her to love it so much it drives her crazy. I've never had a sexual experience driven by such negative emotion, and I came harder than I ever have before (at least by myself). I have masturbated to those pictures every day since. I'm really starting to feel about it, so I've decided to cut myself off. Not quite yet, but soon. I promise. But I haven't decided yet if I'll destroy the pictures. It's such a rush knowing I have them.