so, to set the mood to this confession i highly recommend the song 'creep' by radiohead and a glass of whiskey....
im always miserable. always. i have a lot of friends. a job i love. and money. yet no matter what everything makes me want to just lay down and die. do u know how nice death is? jim morrison once said that the most peaceful thing in life is death because it all stops. if it all stopped, who would care? if i just layed down and let it all go, would time stand still? will everything always be a fight to tears? who are u, incredible emotion, why do u haunt me? what have i ever done? what did i do to deserve all this misery? im so apathetic and so emotionally connected to everyone so easily i feel like someone kicked me straight to the bawls all the time.
my parents think somethings wrong with me. my friends try but cant understand. doctors have no explanation...misssssery.
i dont belong here..