Confused married guy

Sounds like it’s not being confused more like a needed desire your wanting to explore. I didn’t share mine with my wife because I didn’t want her to freak out or think it effected our relationship. When I was in high school at a friends house he was changing my mouth dropped seeing how huge his ** was. I complimented his size and conversation lead to both getting naked and hard comparing and giving hand jobs. I phase of us doing this just touching while I did have a desire to ** him never did. We was in no way gay we both had girlfriends and love ** and **, this overwhelming desire to explore more with him never went away. I felt allot of regret we have always been good friends but we only went thru that ** phase stuff thru high school. I decided the next time we was hanging out without our wives around I would bring up our past. Luckily he was just as excited talking about it and we got naked jacking each other off. I told him how I was always nervous and embarrassed about wanting to ** his ** and do other stuff. He said don’t be embarrassed he wished I had told him, I laughed asking you would had let me ** you. Yeah he said and I started giving him a **.

Before we had did allot of talking while messing around I would call him a BIG ** STUD, MR. THICK ** and MR MUSHROOM HEAD. The size difference still the same mine a little over 5” long and just under 5” around compared to his 9 1/2” long 6 3/4” around FAT ** was his other nick name I gave him. ** my ** you LITTLE ** was my nickname. I did just that choking ok his ** giving him my all wanting to leave a good impression. Wanting to show my appreciation and affection made sure to satisfy him to completion swallowing his load. It was also to my own selfish long awaited desire nothing felt then nor ever will feel as cheating on my wife. After we both laid there satisfied it was a long silence before he asked what other things I thought about. He started getting between my legs laying his long floppy thick ** on my ** something I always enjoyed him doing. Many things have pasted thru my mind I told him over the years since, I asked him what he thought about back then. I felt the pain of his ** up my ** he gripped my skinny limp ** that cam as I had swollowed his load. Continued

I could EASILY remove your confusion by forcing you to submit to me, and that's what I would do. I would NOT allow you to change roles, however, going back and forth between master and slave, just to satisfy your own desires and whims. No. You would not be given a choice. You would immediately become my **, and I would give you a collar to wear to acknowledge that status. If you ever -- EVER -- tried to take control in the relationship, or ever tried to disobey, you would be beaten. All that said, I doubt that you would want to resist my superior position, because -- yes -- I have the ** you were looking for. I am much larger, and much longer, and much thicker, and much better than you. And I have medium-sized but very feminine **. Once you got accustomed to your roll, and accepted your inferiority, and once you got a taste of my ** (I am utterly delicious), you would be eager to comply with my every command, and would quickly begin to anticipate my needs and give me what I want even before I instruct you. You would become a **. You would become MY **. I would not dress you as a girl, because you are so NOT a girl, but I would surely treat you as the inferior little ** you are every moment that we are together. We will speak of your wife another time, but let me just say this about her for now. I suppose you loved her when you married her (or felt something like love for her), but I will absorb every ounce of your love -- and every drop of your ** -- from the beginning of our illicit and totally immoral (and totally depraved) relationship until the end of time. She will be meaningless. You will never never never never NEVER allow her (nor any of your horrid children) to get in my way in your life, or to deprive me of my use of you or your body, or to receive the benefit of your money that I declare to be mine. You need not leave her, but you will NEVER place her above me. NEVER. Are we clear?

Yes mistress! I am your slave, your possession, you own my body and my mind, I will never disobey my position but beat me anyway so I never forget. Please describe yourself to me. What do you look like mistress?
I will learn your special looks and your tells for when I should drop to my knees and do my best to take your bigger, thicker, longer ** in my mouth, and when to strip and bend over and have you ** me like a worthless **.
Please let me ** on and fondle your beautiful feminine ** while you have me on my back, legs spread as you pound my tight **. My little ** is standing erect for you.

I did not realize how advanced (or how filthy) your perversion is: you have quite the appetite for trans girls, don't you? And you also seem to have quite the knowledge of the protocol. That is impressive and I'm pleased that you shared it with me. I'm also impressed that, as you wrote this, you were in the proper posture: naked (at least below the waist), with your ** hard. You and I will fit well together, especially when you recognize your "place" as you did above, bent over and taking my ** up your ** like the "worthless **" you truly are. Yummy.

I am 31, have been on trans HRT since my 20s and can easily pass for female OR male (depending on makeup and attire, and my mood). I am 145lbs, and I stand 5'11" in my bare feet. But oh my darling, in my tallest spikes, stilettos or platforms, I would TOWER over you, and use my height to intimidate you. My hair is chin length, brown (with very bright blonde highlights), and naturally wavy, although I have a collection of beautiful wigs that allow me to adopt any number of "looks". I mostly dress as a woman, but I can rock a man's business suit and draw women to me as well.

While I do love ** a man who's laying on his back, my preferred position for you will usually be in the FDAU position: face down, ** up. You will quickly come to recognize that as your "Destiny Pose".

Now, darling, I want you to consider one final thing. We have been in a very limited communication with one another, and for less than a day. But in that period of time, I already know things about you that your wife has no clue about. I know things about your desires that she would never believe, and likely could never visualize or imagine, much less give you. I have never touched you and yet...…. you are already in love with me. I have this effect on men, since even before HRT: they all love me. And so do you, do you not? And one final question. Do you love me more than you love your wife? Answer carefully and honestly.

Yes I have a desire for trans girls I had been too scared to explore, scared to fray away from "the norm". But my sexual desires are hard to ignore. I am fully naked, ** in hand, with a small ** ready for my ** (this wouldn't be the first time). I have always been in control it's women but have desired women to dominate me, sometimes having to pay for the experience as some girls just never understood it. A "worthless **" sounds like the description I need, as I'm no longer in control.

You sound beautiful mistress! I am 30, around 155lbs with a slim build, a lightly muscular physique but am only 5'9 so I will always be looking up at you. I actually thoroughly enjoy the belittling of being shorter than a woman, if we went out and you were in your heels, several inches taller than me, I would instantly look like the ** in the relationship, people would instantly think less of me and more of you, without ever knowing who ** who behind closed doors. Your natural hair sounds **, I can only imagine you now taking full control of me.

Please may I ask your breast size? And your ** size? I am 5.5" hard but only 2.5" soft, a constant embarrassment in the gym showers but I accept the sniggers at times.

My "destiny pose"... it has been remembered now, I am practising now, face down into a pillow, ** up, ready for your pounding.

Oh wow, as I sit here stroking away, naked, fantasising about you commanding me, dominating me, abusing me at your whim, making me your **, humiliating me, I get closer and closer, my heart beating with excitement, thinking about what you look like as I life my face off the pillow to see your face as you pound me, you may be correct...maybe I am...falling or already have fallen in love with you. Is it the moment, or is it in my heart... I want to kneel in front of you as you tower over me in heels, and your ** stars at me at almost eye level, I want to look up and tell you, I love you my beautiful mistress. (Cont.)

Your final question is difficult and heart breaking. I love my wife dearly, we have been together for many years, we have been through a lot together, but she cannot provide me with the sexual satisfaction I crave nor the dominating and possession like attitude and feeling you give towards me. I love my wife. And I love you. I have opened up to you like no one else, shared my deepest desires, with no ounce of shame, just a desire to please you, to make you happy, to treat me as your worthless **, your **, in private or in public, why because I love you mistress. I love you. Oh my god, it's true, I love you more than my wife mistress. Oh... my.... saying out loud that I love you more than wife as she sleeps upstairs was the final trigger and know I have ** saying I love you mistress. X

There is something about being tied down and having to endure. Whipping or **. Before and after you can be so aroused. During it's just pain and degredation.

You should understand that there can certainly be beauty and arousal -- and love -- in both pain and degradation. It's why so many people not only engage in and enjoy pain and degradation, but actively seek it out. I was taught this wonderful fact by a magnificent black bull master in NYC in the early 90s and I have been deeply involved in the ** scene ever since, up and down the entire East Coast, with all kinds of men (but not with my husband).