In love with best friend
I'm in love with my best friend. He has no idea that I'm gay. No one knows I'm gay. This is a recurring theme -- I fall in love with all my best male friends. Sometimes I even violate them in their sleep because I am so curious. It always gets to the point that I can't control my love for them and end up pushing them away to keep myself hidden. I'm afraid that I'll never be happy.