What am i supose to do?
I met mmy best friend at girl scout camp one year. we were the bestest of friends, or so i though. about a year and a half after we met, we just stopped talking to each other. we got into a huge fight and at that time i was going through a rough patch in life and i took it out on her, it didnt mean or want to but i did.
i dont think she ever really forgave me. but just a few weeks ago i decided to email her, just to see how she was doing. she told me what she did this summer and so did i. earlier this summer i turned to drugs to ease the pain of what i was going though with my family, and other stuff. i told her about that and now she looks down on me and she calls me a liar. when i first met her i did have problems but since then ive gone to counseling and worked on my problems, and most of them have been solved.
i no longer lie to make people like me better. i have controlled my anger problems and i have been clean of drugs for 4 and a half months. she doesnt know that and if i tell her i dont think she will ever believe me. My mom had once told me that she wasnt a good person for me and now i think i believe her. but i miss her so much. what do i do?