i stopped posting things on here
i stopped posting things on here because i finally thought life was going to be ok.
now i'm not sure that it is.
i'm pregnant with my boyfriends child at 18 and he's already broken up with me once. i'm so terrified it'll happen again. i'm sure we could be together forever, but he doesn't always feel the same way. i've tried so hard to change for him, without becoming a different person. it seems like there is always something wrong. i'm scared i'll be a single mother and my child will be getting child support like i did all my life.. i'm scared my child will end up like me. its the most terrifing thought i can think of.
i'm so scared of ending up like the rest of my family.. living off welfare and being second (or third) rate. i was supposed to be the one to be different and not be like the rest of my family. I'M GRADUATING, I'M SUPPOSED TO GO TO COLLEGE! but now i'm pregnant and could possibly be single...
i feel better letting it out.. but i'm still terrified of what will happen.