i had an abortion. it took me almost

i had an abortion.

it took me almost 5 minutes to write that sentence...
only a handful of people know and it kills me inside everyday!!
i would of been about 8 months pregnant and i can't but think of how happy i would of been....

i cringe evey time i think about it and i have never cried more in my life than in those horrible 2 weeks...and i can't help but think this feeling will ever go away!

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  • I hope the president reads this and puts an end to it.
    Abortions are just immoral, and you deserve it.
    be responsible.
    condom, you should have invested in one.

  • a comment to the first commenter shut the f*** up first off if you're worried about people puting their un wanted kid up for adoption then just look around there are plenty of other kids that are up for adoption and the one she aborted was not only up to her decision but it is not going to make a negative change if it is aborted.
    meghna, is this u?
    Seek professional help. Took me years to forgive myself. If you could forgive yourself on your own you would have already done it. Seek held and you will succeed in forgiving yourself. YOUR FEELINGS ARE NOT ABNORMAL. The Dapllhine

  • You did the right thing.

    Raising a child in a less-than-optimal condition results in people like me.

    I'm terrible.

  • Seek professional help. Took me years to forgive myself. If you could forgive yourself on your own you would have already done it. Seek held and you will succeed in forgiving yourself. YOUR FEELINGS ARE NOT ABNORMAL. The Daplhine

  • You people are nuts! Aborting a child is taking away a life God created. He will never forgive her for doing that.

  • ::big hugs::
    I don't believe abortion is right, but I can understand how scared and alone you must have felt to be in that situation. If I were in the same place, it would definitely cross my mind, but because of my beliefs I hope I would choose life.

    Don't listen to these idiots calling you names and saying all sorts of things on here. NO ONE has the right to condemn you for what you did. We've all made mistakes and we all need forgiveness. If you believe in God, ask Him to forgive and heal you, then forgive yourself. That's the hardest part. God still loves you no matter what. If you can find a support group of women who've had abortions, that would really help, just to talk and share your feelings. You are not alone, you are not a bad person, and I sincerely hope you find the love and healing you need.

  • It's ok. I'd give you a hug if I could. Please forgive yourself. You made the best choice you could at the time, and you should try to see a therapist to help you get through this. Don't listen to the ignorant people here who are bad-mouthing you for your difficult decision to have an abortion. They are just people who like living in trailer-parks with a boyfriend raising 5 kids on welfare. And guess what- that's what the republicans want for most women too. They don't want women -especially young women- to have access to an abortion because if they have to keep it they'll be more likely to drop out of school and work a minimum wage job forever, will never be educated, and won't be able to climb the social ladder and make important decisions for our country, leaving the country safely rich white male-dominated.

  • meghna, is this u?

  • dont judge yourself by your actions. you wouldnt want other people to, so love yourself no matter what your choices are. just try to be the best person you possibly can.

  • I was faced with this choice last year. Now i hve an amasing three month daughter. I could hace never aborted her.

  • To the commenter calling the woman who had an abortion an ignorant c***. You better hope that woman wasn't forced to have an abortion because of rape or incest.

  • The world is overpopulated. I wish more people would have abortions. The average american infant uses 10,000 disposable diapers a year. A new baby is born every three seconds. Do that math d******. Pro-life f****** like you are what is going to eventually destroy this earth and all the "precious little children" on it.

  • To the person who made the last comment:
    So you're saying that it takes a woman with great strength to choose to abort her baby instead of having it and taking care of it? Come on, that's crazy. It takes an extremely weak person to do something like that. And if you kill one baby, your no good ass shouldn't have any more kids, not now, not ever. You don't deserve the happiness and fullfillment that a baby brings. Sending your little star back to heaven? YOU IGNORANT C***!! If I went home and murdered my 1 year old daughter, could I tell the police that I was just sending my little star back to heaven? Does your children know that they would have had a big brother or sister? Probably not because youre ashamed of what youve done.

  • Oh sweetheart...me too. It's hard, I know. But you can't change the past. Healing a wound like this takes time, but take comfort in the fact that you won't feel like this forever. It's been nine years since I sent my little star back to the heavens, and I heal a little more each day. Stay strong, and don't listen to all these judgemental, ignorant, fools. It takes an amazing woman with great strength to make the choice you did. I have three beautiful children now....and to think if I had not made the choice I did....my life might not have gone in the direction that brought me to them.

  • I would've done the same thing, because I'm not ready to raise a child, and because child birth is not something I want to experience at this point in my life. Yes, there are families who would be willing to adopt the baby, but there are also many orphans in the world who need adoption. And once you give birth, you may change your mind and keep the baby, even if it ultimately is not the best decision for you. Look, you made your choice and chances are it was the RIGHT choice FOR YOU, and a rational one. Please let it comfort you to know that years from now, you will be relieved that you had years more of freedom, learning, establishing a career and financial security, and growing up of your own to do so that you could BE a good mother and partner, rather than having spent those years tied down to motherhood before you even knew what it was to stand on your own.

  • Look what's done is done. It was your choice. Forget all these idiots who keep calling you crazy for aborting. It's your choice. And who knows maybe you are better off in the long run. Keep your head up.

  • You should have taken responsibility for your actions, and kept and raised the baby.

  • a comment to the first commenter shut the f*** up first off if your worried about people puting up there un wanted kid up for adoption than just look around there are plenty of other kids that need to be adoped the one she aborted was not only up to her desicion but it is not going to make a negative change if it is aborted.

  • You're such a p****. Just deal with it. We don't need more people on the earth.

  • Why did you do it?

  • You killed your baby when you could have just given it to someone who couldn't have kids. You deserve to feel like s***. I had a baby when I was 16. There is no greater feeling than when i hear her say that she loves me. Mothers day is Sunday and Im going to celebrate by getting a manicure paid for by my daughters' piggy bank. They love me. If your baby could talk, she'd say "why did you kill me, mommy? I would have loved you forever." When you wanna f***, you need to stand up and take responsibility when you get pregnant. I did, 4 times, and I can sleep at night.

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