I'm more ashamed of myself that anyone else will be

I am probably the most disgusting human being to have ever lived. I am a 19 year old girl and cant actually keep count of how many boys I have slept with. I cheated on all my boyfriends up to the recent, who has helped me through my crazy times. I used to be addicted to cocaine and was having an affair with a 25 year old man who is engaged. He promised me so much, so after a lot of thought I realised I was being groomed at 18. Still so wrong. I also have managed to sleep with my older brothers best friend. My ex boyfriend multiple times while with another guy. I just love s**, and used to get it from anyone possible. I even f***** an old friend on new years day just cos I needed a place to stay.