Im a terrible person. Here's Why. I wished to be ** again.

Im a +40 man. I was some 20, (totally drunken, of course), when a older guy "forced" me to ** a bit.. "Forced", because it was some kind of interesting, and he was like a gentleman..
Anyways, i passed out on his acting, no idea how long it has gone before awakening. He immediately stopped, and asked apology..

Same here since that, i often fantasize being handcuffed or tied, and mouth gagged. And ofcourse being even worse **, but being awake!
No idea why.. Maybe somekind of "mental antidote"?
If i fantasize about it happening, it diminishes the real incident and it´s affection on me?..

I wouldn't try to analyse it too much. Some people like ** just like some people like **... or masochism... or **.

I"m sorry that happen to you i know how you feel if ever want talk i'm here for you Timbotwo75@aol.com

Those saying this person is a troll doesn't understand the phycological drama ** can cause. I've been ** on 5 different occasions, and looking back after the first two guys, I've subconsciously put myself in each situation afterwards. Because I didn't know any better. Because I didn't get help. Now I'm scared that I'll be ** again (so I've stopped becoming friends with males), but my mind has adjusted in a way that it views ** as normal. Because of this I've also developed a ** fetish as a way to cope. It makes it feel slightly more bearable. No this is not healthy, nor does it make any sense. But the mind doesn't always make sense and repairs it's self how it can.

So can I ** you?

You can with me

Where are you?

I’ll do it I’m a boxer 156 pounds of pure muscle 9 1/2 inch thick ** Young and I come way more than most guys like 4 cups and I’ll get you pregnant to I’ll genuinely ** you every time I have ** with you

** is always wrong but I like the idea of 9 yr old **

I'm sorry people think you're a troll. it's a part of PTSD most likely. if you're up for it, please try to find a good therapist.

Seriously? This is just a troll.

Many survivors of ** hate themselves because it turns out that their ** was the best ** they ever had. Some married females who never have never had an ** in t heir life and never had an ** with their husband have strong multiple ** when they are **. Some females hate their bodies for betraying them. Other females, try to replicate the experience and discover the can only enjoy ** when they are being **.
Most rapists are not violent and do not wish to physically hurt their victims. Some rapists get off on getting their victims to **, and most ** victims try their best not to ** in order not to give their ** the satisfaction of knowing he caused them to climax.

As a male victim, i can say that nowadays most of my friends are female, and i "feel" that i have coped it.. but obviously there are still something in back of my mind..
Those romantic relationships i´ve had, haven´t lasted long. Partially because of me, though im negotiative, but mostly because i tend to find women who end up hurting me a lot in mental level.. They every one have had their own issues, and most of them at least once ** :/

I wonder how many ppl you are making sick to the stomach that were actually **. Go ** yourself you troll and I hope your c*nt caves in.

I like when girls get ** and I like girls that think of when they get ** as compliments. You however are a loser lol.

There is a way to do this. Talk to the person who will be your **. Usually it's your partner or lover but it could be a friend or acquaintance. The reality is that you do need to consent. So it's not exactly **. But actually you know ** is terrible and can wreck you forever. But you can live your fantasy. Think it through and talk it through and if he's a decent guy or girl then they will make it happen for you. Like I do not want a old dirty hairy drunk to do it.

I have done this a couple of times. The first time was with my boyfriend now husband and since then he has organised them for me. With him, I realised what I wanted was to not know when or where. I wanted to be able to struggle and scream and cry and be scared. The first time was **. I fought back and he stopped. We had this huge argument and left it for a while. Then I asked if he would do it again but not give up or be gentle and it was just what I'd asked for. yes I was hurt and scared. And lots of TLC after. So exciting.

What a load of hot c*ck. You were never **, just come out with it and simply say you'd like to be **. You'd get ample responses I'm sure.

Are you a troll? I have never heard a ** victim want to go thorough a traumatic experience like that again.

Except when you lose your virginity im pretty sure you start feeling sexual pleasure from it, how is feeling sexual pleasure traumatic?

Dear Arena,

You are not terrible, sick or twisted, A large number of survivors discover they like being **. I have a confession to make to you. Even though I don't judge gays, I am homophobic and find male homosexuality repulsive. But I also have a compulsion to be **. I would much rather be **/sodomized by females. But I realize it, no female is ever going to do it. So, I even considered placing myself in a situation where i would be ** by males. I am also turned on by anything to do with non-consensual **. I am Daddy dom. If you wanted to be my submissive or the submissive of any other male domiant, you would be consenting to their ** you anytime they wish. You would become their ** slave. their ** toy to be used and sexually abused however they wised to **, molest, or sexually abuse you.
One thing that set me apart from others here is I would care about you and love you. Your happiness to me is more important to me than my sexual gratification. I never abandon anyone. I would do my best to help you any way I could. I am a sadomasochist. I enjoy sexually torturing females. But I also have a need for survivors of sexual abuse to take their anger, hate, rage and fury out on me. I want to take away your pain. I want you to feel loved, cared for and cherished. I want to rebuild your self-esteem and your self-confidence. You tell me how I could make you happy, and i would do it.

Ever since I've watched Pornhub videos, seeing women restrained to vibrators and suspended over ** machines, I've wanted to do that so bad. Just the idea of being restrained to the point where I cannot move a muscle is so pleasing.

I am a registered ** offender. I have come to meet many other offenders. One peed on a wall after getting drunk and now has to register. Another ** his own children for years.

Through treatment, I have learned that many people will victimize themselves again and again. Your confession is iconic of this behavior.

I cant tell you what to do and neither can anyone else. Just remember, actions have consequences. You could end up pregnant or with a disease. You could end up in court. If your aggressor admits to ** you, you may be required to testify. This is a slippery slope. Disease is unforgiving. Pregnancy is unforgiving. The ** offender registry is unforgiving. Your so called peers are unforgiving.

There is help through religion or treatment. You deserve a loving and supporting relationship. You deserve to choose your own path in life. You deserve to be happy.

Come, let me ** you ;)

If you are asking her for permission then it's not ** you idiot.