I am secretly seeing ** in my system

um, WHAT? Lay off of the cocaine, please.

LOL

Nothing wrong with **...in the right moderation

You are distracted from the work you have to do by stuff that is more fun, such as watching **? Welcome to a group that basically includes every college male and millions of others, to some extent. Realize that it is a distraction and use self control when you need to. At other times, have some R & R, whatever your flavor.