It was late, I was tired and my toddler

It was late, I was tired and my toddler was whining & I wasnt in the mood to receive phone calls when mom called, she began to b**** about her life, about dad and about how much she missed having her grandchilden over. In short she needed somebody to talk to, Before she could finish I stopped her and told her that it wasnt a good time to talk, and that I needed to settle in for the night
The line went silent for a few seconds then quietly she said " I understand dear, you try to get some rest and I'll call you tomorrow to see how you are" I said " ok mom whatever" almost in an annoyed tone, then she said "I love you, goodnight" I cant remember if I replied.
The next morning the phone rang, it was dad " Im not sure how to tell you son but your mother passed way during the night" during the funeral dad & I were sitting having a quiet moment together when he put his hand on my knee and said "son your mom and I were preparing for bed when she told me she was going to call you...just to say hello, you know how she liked to fuss over you" at that moment my blood froze and i felt a shiver go up my spine, I avoided making eye contact with dad but he continued "anyway, I had fallen asleep by the time she turned in, so it seems you were the last person to speak to her, I envy you for that son, I just wish I hadn't selfishly fallen asleep" the tears were beginnig to well up in his eyes, I smiled and put my hand over his trying to comfort him, and as he bowed his head and silently sobbed my mind went back to the evening mom called, if only dad knew the truth! Mom, its been 18 years but I think about that evening and you almost every day, I love you mom. I LOVE YOU!

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  • you cant confess the same thing twice you d***!

  • You did already confess this.

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  • Best confession I have seen on this site.:)
    This could have happened to any one of us, it is not your fault she died.
    Obviously she understood you where not having a great day when you where both saying good byes on the phone.
    Mothers tend to understand things.
    Your mother said she loved you prior to hanging up, she knew that you loved her, again mothers know this stuff, Smile my friend as you have something GOOD to remember. My mother died without me knowing it or getting a chance to say a word, from her or me.
    You did nothing wrong.

  • You did not cause her to die. This was bad luck. She knew you love her. Forgive yourself. I suspect that's what she would say.

  • You already confessed this.

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