29 yr old male virgin
I am a 29 year old virgin. I am a somewhat light skinned black male. I'm attractive, well at least thats what Im told a lot. But, Im stll a virgin. I sick and tired of it. I cant ever seem to get ahead in my life when it comes to love. H***, its not just the s**, its really just the feeling of having someone to hold and know that they care about me. It really is. But every girl(few) ive knon, they always say that they dont see me that way. I try to be nice to women cuz i was raised that way. Raised to be nice, kind, forgiving, and loving. But they dont seem to want that. They prefer guys who cheat, lie, curse them out, and even abuse them. One girl in my youth is now with my ex best friend. He honest to god, told me, "Man that girl is fine, if you dont get with her, I will, she fine as h***". I was trying to be good to her, but she chose him. Most recently this girl I know i think is using me. She always says she wants a good guy. So, I do my best to do for her, to show her that I care about her. Ive done it all, for her, but yet she dates guys who dont care for her, then calls me to complain bout it. She says im the best guy shes ever known, but she wont give me a chance. Im just tired! Ive been thinking lately why not just end this. why not. who would care and who would miss me. But, the only reason I dont is because i dont want burden my family with the cost of my funeral. If not for that, i wouldnt be here typing this. and no, i refuse to pay for it. maybe this is a cry help instead of a confession.