I am an 18 year old female and I started working at a restaurant a few months ago. I have feelings for one of the managers. They developed very slowly, but lately its all I can think about. It wouldn't be such a big deal, because we all get crushes, except she is a girl, her name is Sara. I have always considered myself straight. There are a few girls I have found attractive, but NEVER considered dating one, because they have never made me feel the way a guy does. I thought Sara was awesome the moment I met her, she was funny and made work enjoyable. I'm not really physically attracted to her, its just her personality. At first, I was scared about all of this, but now I just really want to be with her. I don't think I am a lesbian, because this is honestly my only girl crush, and I still really like guys. I don't want to consider myself bisexual either because that would imply that my sexual preference is girls and boys so I don't know. I guess I am just looking for advice on what I should do, and I am also wondering if I can be straight and have feelings for this girl? Is that possible?
Just a clarification, I would not be ashamed of being with a girl...I'm just extremely confused and needed someone to tell my story to.