I'm 19 years old. I've always been the

I'm 19 years old. I've always been the quiet, shy girl my whole life and have always found it extremely hard to make friends, nevermind boyfriends. I'm still a virgin. I think this may play a role in why I feel and behave the way I do in the situation I'm about to describe.

I have a best friend and he's a boy. I've known him for almost 2 years now. I've always had a thing for him since before I even really got to know him. He's the complete opposite of me. He seems like a nerd but handsome, outgoing, hilarious, very intelligent, and a theater geek. I always hear people talking about how awesome, funny, cute, he is and what-not.

We get a long so well, though. I feel we balance each other out a lot. We both love video games. I love to draw and he loves that I can because he can't. I admire his confidence and how he can act and play instruments and sing, all things I've wished I could do. He gives me so much advice about school and life and stuff. He loves all the "interesting" questions I ask, even though I just think they're stupid.

Anyways... He's told me the friendship he has with me he oly has with 2 other people (guys). He always compliments me about how pretty I am and how I am so girly but think like a dude because I'm apparently very "understanding" or whatever.

He's told me he's liked me before when I first started hanging out with him but he didn't want a girlfriend because he just got out of a long nasty relationship. His first "REAL" relationship. I understood that. We continued to be friends and never really talked about it again. Since then, he's been quite the manwhore with a bunch of chicks. He says he thinks they're cool and he chills with them and stuff, but he also has a "no strings attatched" s**. We've never gone passed making out because I don't want to have my first time with someone I'm not dating, especially if it's with someone who could just have s** with someone else the next day. It'd be hurtful. I brought up the fact that I liked him still and he still doesn't want a girlfriend. He enjoys the single life and having a girlfriend is just too much commitment in more ways that just being with one girl, so he says. He just wants to worry about himself. I understand that but I can't help but like him still.

He gets along with my family great. He told my brother that he felt like he wouldn't be a good first example of a boyfriend, that's why he doesn't want to date me... He's never told me that. Sometimes I think he's just using me but we're such good friends.. plus he treats me like his girlfriend so much. He respects everything I want and don't want to do.. he doesn't pressure me at all. Sometimes I'm the one who wants to makeout and he's playing video games or trying to make me draw crap. I'm the only one of his friends to meet his dad. His family is apparently really picky about the girls he brings home but they love me and want him to date me, too. He invites me to family gatherings and weddings.. I just don't get why we just can't date. He doesn't want anything to change, but the only thing I see changing is him not seeing other girls. I feel like we'd have a fun relationship. It's just so dumb. I get jealous of the girls he sleeps with because they get to be with him. Share moments I'd like to share with him but only if we're dating. He said he doesn't want to hurt me but he wants to do what he wants to do. He always tries to convince me to meet gys, but when I do he gets jealous.

I don't know if I like him so much because he's the only guy in my life right now or what.I'm not getting anywhere right now in my life. I don't think I'll be meeting new people anytime soon. I would love to just make something of what we have or just lose the feelings and have a normal friendship, but it's hard when he's the only person who is there for you. It's just so stressful. I'm sorry if this is confusing to whoever reads this. I'm really good at rambling and horrible at expressing how I feel coherently.

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  • Sure a person like that could be a great BF, only if both of you want that however. A best friend is a lot better in alot of situations, then a BF that may not last. Remember if he is a real, best friends he will be for life. I am the first commenter. My situation turned from best friends with the same kind of trust and openness that you discribe, only to have it turn into a BF/GF thing which then ended. It also ended the friendship. Just be careful how you proceed. Good Luck
    Set a date. On that date if things aren't happening give it up

  • Set a date. On that date if things aren't happening give it up

  • Omg look for someone else. he obviously doesn't wanna date you because he knows he sleeps around and would only hurt you.
    move on!!!!!

  • If you go out with this guy (even if he wanted to), you're just in for a lot of heartache. He does what he wants on his own terms. He gets to sleep around with other girls, gets to make out with you when it's convenient, and basically has it all! The reasons you like him seem valid (he's nice, you get along, he likes your family, his family likes you), but his one killer weakness is that he likes to sleep around with other girls. Think about it. When you're 25, will that be acceptable to you? 35? 45? You'll never be able to trust the guy. Ever. Maybe stay friends with him, but stop making out with this guy and losing your dignity. Look for someone else who doesn't have his killer weakness.

  • this is to long to even read....

  • k seriously why is everyone making there freakin confessions so long all of a sudden?

  • Sure a person like that could be a great BF, only if both of you want that however. A best friend is much better in alot of situations, then a BF that may not last. Remember if he is a real, best friends he will be for life.
    I am the first commenter. My situation turned from best friends with the same kind of trust and openness that you discribe, only to have it turn in a BF/GF thing which then ended. It also end the friendship. Just be carefull how you proceed.
    Good Luck

  • I'm 22, I am not the most popular girl, you'll meet but I have plenty of frinds (boys & girls). The thing is, I've never had a boyfriend either; and I'm starting to like my best friend. The thing is, he is not the only friend I have. We've been friends for 7 years...why now? I sometime ask myself if I like him becaus he needs me. But I've also thought that he is the one person that understands all these different parts of my life. I already know him as a true friend (and not as a "pretending" boyfriend).... so wouldn't a person like that make a great boyfriend?

  • If you are saying that he is your best friend and you trust him...well this is great. I had a best friend, a GAL, that was of opposite s**. It was great but like all good things it ended..i still look back and smile however. So if this is what you said...enjoy.

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