Wanting to kill
In general i want to kill him. i think this desire has started even before i was born. my mother was raped by her husband, my sister was raped by her and my father or so they say, and i was raped by my step father. my relationship with men has been horrible. my mothers next boyfriend tried to kill her. then my mother meet a really nice guy, but even if he was nice, i stuck needles in his favorite chair so when he say down, he would get hurt. that was when i was just eleven years old. surprisingly he stayed now i am scared of myself.