Something Inside

I am sitting here watching Logo (lesbian and gay network). And honestly I am starting to think about me and my sexuality again. I want to talk to someone. But I have no idea how or who. I am in love with my soul mate. But I know that I am attracted to women. (I am a woman) I have been out and bisexual for years. I am trying to decide whether I need to find out why this keeps popping up in my mind. I also wonder if I was not born the right s**. Because my attraction is bisexual no matter what. But I feel like a bisexual man not woman. And f*** all I know this does not make sense. And my soul mate tries so hard to be excepting. But he is 12 years older than me. And married for 15 years before me. And honestly he has had 3 sexual partners (ME INCLUDED) And I have had 23 that I can remember. I have never been uncomfortable with that. But I do realize that I have been much more about s** with men then women. I loved having s** with women but I also really focused on the relationship and was very choosy. I do not have alot of female friends because honestly alot annoy me. But...s*** I make no sense....Please help.

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  • I'm going through the exact same thing! I'm married to my soulmate who is a guy (I'm a woman too), but I have always been attracted to women as well. In fact, more than men. I'm always ogling women and I fully understand why men like women's bodies. B****** turn me REALLY ON. I have fantasies of going down on a woman, and making her feel appreciated and loved. The only reason I never slept or got in a relationship with a woman is because it is so damn hard to find compatible women that have the same interests or way of thinking, than it is for me to find compatible guys, especially where I live (egypt). My husband is rare for sure. It's more about the connection to me.

    However I am really craving a woman's body. I suggested having a threesome to my husband and he likes the idea (of course lol). so now I am having trouble finding a fellow bisexual woman willing to sleep with us lol - in egypt! Its hard.

    Do you ever find yourself more comfortable with women, than men? Meaning for example, out of fear of cheating, do you find yourself more reluctant to 'cross lines' with a certain gender? I do. I find it uncomfortable getting close to guys or male friends but no difficulty getting close with girlfriends. But I don't think it necessarily means I'm straight. I just guess girls have less boundaries with eachother.

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