I don't deserve this at all :(

About 4 years ago I was in a serious relationship for 3 years. I loved him. He cheated on me once and gave me herpes. Total heart broken and was super suicidal about giving up hope. Thought I would never find someone to love me like he did. Well I have been single up until about 6 months ago. I found someone I completely fell in love with he is the love of my life. I just got diagnosed with HPV genital warts a few days ago. This is a double whammy I dont know what do to. I do everything right and just love love love, and they both did this to me. Now I have herpes and HPV. I feel like no one will want me. I think i am fairly attractive, and most likely the sweetest girl youve ever met. Ive only slept with 3 men in my life and those two gave me diseases I have for life now that i dont deserve. Call it bad luck? I think so. But these monsters of men completely destroyed me and I feel like im worth absolutely nothing to anybody. Im seriously thinking about killing myself and im not sure what to do..

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  • You're not alone. I recently discovered that I have HPV and I felt like my whole life went upside down. HPV is one of the most common STD and 70% of sexually active women will be infected with this in their life. My GYN doctor told me that it can go possibly go away in 2-3 years if your immune system is strong enough. There is hope for the both of us. We just have to fight through this and there is so much to look forward to in life. You should live life to the fullest regardless of whether you find love or not. There is so much more to life than that.

  • Don't kill yourself, woman. What will that prove besides you're too weak to live life and accept your very own mistakes? You caught Herps (curable) & HPV; Why? Did you not make him use protection or was it a spurt of the moment thing? I hope not the latter because then you deserved it. Life's not just about men & being in a relationship sometimes you gotta think clearly about yourself and find out what is it you really want.

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  • You aren't worthless: you just happened upon two men who ARE worthless. I'm sorry for that, really, but you can't assume that no one will want to be with you. Herpes can be controlled medically, and HPV rarely impacts men, so you should be able to find windows of time where you can be active with a man or men who want you so bad they can't stand themselves. Your explanation of your medical issues will reduce any fears they have, but you shouldn't bring it up until you develop a sense that a man is into you for real, and that he's mature enough (and smart enough) to cope. Please don't harm yourself. You aren't defective, and some lucky man or men will discover that and treat you like you deserve to be treated.

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