I gave up the love and trust of my
I gave up the love and trust of my family to be with my boyfriend. I started a new life with him because it was worth being with the love of my life than to have my family. It was the best times of my life that I wouldn't take back. I will be honest, times weren't all that great and it was stressful. To me, it was the good times that made it worth while. I made two horrible mistakes and he will not forgive me. I hid nothing else from him but these two things were a part of my past that I didn't want to bring into this new relationship. I apologized with all my heart and yet he has left me here in our house, alone. This house has turned into a coffin of our memories.... I have lost my mind for the past seven days and now I feel so hurt... I have given him my everything...... for what? I want so badly to call my family and ask them for support but I can't because they won't even talk to me. I don't know how to cope. I keep telling myself that things will be alright, but how can I see any hope when things just keep getting worse? I've hit rock bottom and I see no hope. It hurts so much.... that dying seems like the best solution to numb the pain.