A man I work with really like me. He is
A man I work with really like me. He is married with a kid. I really like him. More than anything, it is l***. I have felt like going off the rails recently, and even considered taking up his offers of s** even though I normally laugh it off. I have been thinking of it for a while now seriously. So today I was working with him and told him I'd dreamt of him and that I reckon it was because I had been h****. I didn't think anything more of it. I know I was flirting. Later, he repeated it to someone else and it got back to me. He then told them I was joking because he saw I was annoyed. It was after I realised what I really felt: ashamed as I deserved to. How could I do that? Even to entice a betrothed man? I felt cheap and like the tart I was behaving like. It is so against my character, I think it has shocked me back on track. I am going to apologise to him tomorrow for saying such a thing to him and accept blame for it. I wanted to confess because I am so appalled by my own behaviour.