5 years later
just thinking about you gives me butterflies in my stomach. No one will ever know how much I really did like you and how much i still think about you. I always acted like i didn't care and that i never really liked you but even five years later the thought of you still brings a smile to my face. All my friends and all of your friends thought that you were the one who was crazy about me and that i was just completely indifferent. But little did anyone know that i would light up inside at just the mention of your name. Even though i know we could never be together because of our different lifestyles, i will always cherish the way you made me feel and the way you talked about me to your friends and my friends. I love the way you made me laugh and how we spent the whole night talking. Sometimes i regret not showing enough of my feelings but at the same time I am kind of relieved that i didnt expose how i really felt about you. Acting this way is like a security blanket to me which no one will ever understand. Even though i am in a happy relationship of four years that i would never trade for the world, thinking about what we had still makes me feel sixteen again.