I stopped meeting my mother
My father was a philanderer and my mother was hot as h*** in her mid 30's . I started to feel sexual attraction to her and adapted voyeurisms. After my parents split up I got depressed but eventually my libido started to act in weirder way. I left her to avoid myself in mirror after a quarrel with her for no reason. 6 years passed, I didn't call her, not even once. She is unaware of my whereabouts. Recently my girlfriend of 8 years broke up with me due to my jealousy towards her career and her freedom. It was my fault, she left me , but I still love her very much and now probably I am feeling what my mom felt for last 6 years, but I decided to remain lost for life.I am not going back. I've headed to h*** anyway when I injected endless pain in these two women.