I think I turned my Christian parents into Athiests
When I was really young, my parents found the Lord and raised me on Christianity. Church twice every Sunday, one every Wednesday, the whole ordeal. Even missionary work. I was so religious all through my teen years. I was such a good kid.
Eventually, I started to see a lot of flaws in the church. Most of them would act a certain way on Sunday, and a different way the rest of the week. I was just about the only teenager in the church who didn't cuss, smoke, drink, or have s**. Then all h*** broke lose: I started getting accused of these things. I was told I was going to h***. Once I turned 18 (more like 19 or 20) I moved away from home and never went back to church.
My parents stayed religious until I was around 30, despite their old church having a bad falling out. Now im nearly 40 and most folks don't go to church or act Christian at all. Its so weird.
I cant help but feel responsible. They changed their ways to become religious and raise the best kid they could. It failed. They seem miserable. What if they were right, what if there really is a heaven and h***? I feel Ive screwed up but I cant help how I feel. I cant do fake.