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Why Would God Make Me If No One Can Love Me?
I know I shouldn't question God. God will be good whether I die without finding love or not...because the truth is that I've seen love before. Though I never felt it, I have seen it and therefore I know it exists. The kind of love I have been lucky to witness can only be a blessing from God.
However, I grew up without parents and in the foster care system. I can count on one hand the amount of times I've heard I love you growing up. I would need a hand and a half to count how many times I've heard it in my entire life. But me...I say I love you countless times. I may not be the prettiest girl in the world but I have a ** good heart of gold. I try to help everyone around me, even those that can't give me anything back. I'm a great friend, I'm a successful business woman, and I'm the best ** girlfriend around.
But ever since I was young men could not love me. This includes my father, my male uncle, my male **, and my male exes.
It's like they deem me to be worthless. My male uncle would often call me fat and tell me that no man would ever want to marry me. He didn't know how deeply he cut me when he said that.
It seems to be true.
I just don't understand why God would make a person like me?
I know he has a good reason for doing it. But it HURTS.
I don't think there is anything that I desire more than true love in this world. Everyone around me is getting married and while I'm extremely happy that God is blessing them...I wonder if I should stop dreaming.
Maybe I'm not capable of being loved by a man.
Maybe they were right.
I'm working on getting rid of my desire for it. I want to feel numb to it.
There is no "God". He only exists in your mind because of the ** you've been fed.
Think for yourself. Think critically and with reason.
Then go live.
Ditch god and live
The biggest scam going.....
Try women instead. Just a suggestion.
In my opinion, derived from my own experiences and encounters - there seems to be more loving and kind women out there, compared to men. Just my opinion. Everyone's experiences and perspectives are different.
My point is, don't rule out anything. Keep an open-mind. You'll find someone that deserves you one day, possibly in unexpected places and with unexpected people. They're out there :)
I thought there wasn't, until I met my special person.
Remember, you're deserving of love and happiness. Learn to love and cherish yourself first, before others can do the same. Your love and happiness shouldn't be based on how others feel about you, it's about how you feel about yourself. Sharing one's love and life with others is special. But don't seek love from others, that you don't already feel for yourself. You're important.
It's not you; there are ALOT of ** men out there. Just in case Nobody told you this today: You are kind, you are smart, you are beautiful, and you deserve to be loved.