I'm not supposed to feel this way!!
I'm a girl and I'm addicted to lesbian hentai. I can't stop thinking about, reading about, watching it. I don't like REAL girls, if that makes sense. But I like celebrities and such. I like guys as well, but its like 70% girl for me. I don't know what to do. I HATE the whole idea. Its against God and I love my religion. If I told anyone they would hate and reject me. I LOVE my family and I would LOVE to just 100% love guys, like I'm SUPPOSED to. I wish I could tell someone, ANYONE and then I could talk about it. Its eating me up. I HATE this. I CAN'T like women. God made men for women. What can I do? I'm pretty sure i can just forget about women if I can find a really cool guy and just obsess about him. But no such luck. Maybe its my depression, maybe its my loneliness, mybe its because I just... can't take it. Not life, I love life, but I just feel.. burdened. I need to talk to someone, but i can't talk to my friends or family because everyone knows each other and it could lead to everyone freezing me out. I don't want that. I don't want THIS. I want to be NORMAL.